Friday, January 19, 2018

All Flights Land in Bangkok

During a late afternoon constitutional through our seaside village, Zach and I chatted about our niece, Cathryn. Much to our disbelief yet delight, she was on the cusp of graduating university within the coming weeks. Jokes about how one who was perpetually eight could possibly be graduating university gradually shifted into ways to mark such an occasion. Being people who prefer experiences over things, we floated the idea between us on her joining our holiday travel. The more we talked about the possibility, the more excited we became. Later that evening, Zach sent his dad a text message: What are you giving Cathryn for graduation? 

"I want to go to Thailand but not go with a tour group," read the message sent by Tiger. 

Our dear friend wanted to experience life beyond the borders of China, but did not want to go the expensive, typical Chinese route of joining a tour group, doomed to run behind a yellow flag through the country. A flurry of messages ensued, discussing options and what she wanted to experience during a trip to the land of a thousand smiles. Eventually, we sent the message: Do you want to travel with us? 


Mid afternoon on January 16, I snapped this photo to commemorate our first Thai tea of the journey and to announce to the world we had a travel crew. This was a day to gauge personalities, initial reactions to the culture, travel mojos, and jetlag reactions. We kept moving by walking Khao San Road in an effort to keep Cathryn awake, which was successful (though her holding the pole on the bus, gazing into nothingness, and swaying in an effort to survive was comical en route to our apartment at the end of the day.)

The days to follow were full of explorations. While Bangkok is the go-to jumping off point for our annual travels (meaning we often stop in this bustling metropolis), we had to reset our thinking and remember what it was like to be travelers to this new land. We became tourist again with our crew, by revisiting some of our favorite spots, as well as discovering new spots.


One day was spent along the Chao Phraya River; riding the water taxi with a few stops along the way. One stop was for the Grand Palace. We agreed to enter the complex, though all were skeptical of the steep entrance fee (500 baht, $16 for foreigners). After dodging the scammy touts wearing police hats at the entrance and donning all appropriate clothing, we entered the grounds to join the massive hordes of tour groups.

The royal grounds encompasses many buildings, the most prominent being Wat Phra Kaew, home to the Emerald Buddha. The glittery, bedazzled facades of wats are always stunning and a delight to gaze upon, but within the weaving pathways of this area, we giggled a lot at the information that Chinese tour guides were disseminating. There was a suspicious amount of wat adornments that were made in China and somehow Chinese dragons are more superior to Thai dragons based on the number of claws. Nonetheless, we enjoyed our little bubble of meditative peace among such chaos, though definitely noticed when a magical moment donged and the tour groups vacated the area.


When we arrived at the actual palace, a smidgen of disappointment and bewilderment emerged. First, we really questioned whether the building behind the sign was the actual palace since its architecture was obviously of European influence. Second, no one could enter it. How was it that a royal palace tour did not involve the actual royal palace?! We were not the only ones to notice this seemingly bait and switch situation, but decided that an obligatory picture and the bragging rights of being on royal property would be sufficient, as the wat and people watching opportunities had been superb.


After departing the royal palace, we walked over to Wat Pho. There were definite changes since our last visit - a laxer dress code and the reclining Buddha has new bedazzled tootsies. After the hordes at the palace, the vacant walkways of this wat was delightful. It was peaceful. It was easy to maneuver and gaze at the minute details. We took so many stunning photos devoid of a crowd. This complex continues to be a favorite for Zach and I, so it was delightful to share it with our crew.
The other days were spent eating a lot of pad thai, drinking a lot of thai tea, discovering a handful of the abounding street markets, visiting an over-hyped-underwhelming Harry Potter shop, a day trip to Ayutthaya, walking for kilometers, navigating public transit (bemoaning as to why the BTS has not instituted the card system like most Asian countries), and swimming (learning to swim for Wang Hao) in our AirBnb pool.


Bangkok served us well in being our beginning hub; it is where we met, began to understand our individual rhythms, coordinated our collective travel mojo, and planned for the weeks to come. After four days, we boarded a plane bound for Chiang Mai and new territory for all of us. 

Thursday, January 18, 2018

Ayuthaya: The Land of Ruins



(Disclaimer: Since our travel stories are abounding, Zach and I have distributed the stories among ourselves so that I am not so overwhelmed with getting everything told. Granted this blog is more for our memories when we are aged and rickety, but should this read different than my normal rambling storytelling, that is because Zach is the author.

If a person is looking for an easy introduction into the ancient world, Ayutthaya is definitely what they are looking for. A few years ago, Amanda and I had extra time in our “lounging in Bangkok” schedule, and we decided to explore this ancient capital of Siam. It was a great day to take a minibus, shun overpriced tuk-tuks, and explore the ruins. During that adventure, we learned that Ayutthaya should not be walked by anyone but those who are experienced with long days traversing many kilometers in the humid sun. This year, since we were traveling with three Thailand rookies, we decided to limit our explorations to a five kilometer radius.


From Bangkok, we boarded a minibus and rode in relative discomfort for about an hour (I continually declared for the remainder of our two month journey, that this particular bus ride was by far my least favorite experience). Once we arrived, we decided to avoid the vulturing tuk-tuk drivers and set out on our own. Since we didn’t want to hire anyone for the day, the plan was to walk a little way from town and hope a non-hired driver would have pity on us and take us the 3 km to the first ruin. It didn’t take long for a driver to pull up, and after a few short minutes of bartering, we were on our way to the first ruins.


The first ruins are my favorite. It doesn’t matter how many times I have been to Thailand or how many times I will likely see the same place, Wat Mahathat will always be the one that holds my heart, and I couldn’t wait to show our crew. 


There is something special about this set of ruins. Like all, it has been rebuilt with most of the same bricks to look similar to what it might have looked like hundreds of years ago. Just like the other places, invading armies destroyed the Buddha statues in an attempt to discredit the belief system. Trees have grown over all the ruins, time and erosion have worn them down, and only a small amount of their splendor still remains. But in this place, there is a uniqueness that prevails. At Wat Mahathat, there is one tree that has preserved the most unlikely of treasures – a smiling Buddha head. Tourists and tour groups from all over the world come to witness it, and if the lone travelers are willing to brave the crowds and wait for the lulls in coordinated hats, flags, shirts, and general pushiness, they will not be disappointed. It is in this place that I can stand in relative silence, marveling at what nature has decided to revere.


As a quintet, we stayed at Ayutthaya for about 6 hours, walking the area, laughing with each other and teasing Wang Hao for randomly taste-testing things he found on the ground, and taking pictures of the ruins. Other than the ruins, the best part of the day was watching Tiger as she experienced elephants for the first time. My only regret was that I did not take pictures of her as the elephants quietly stomped by. Her amazement and wonder were a continued reminder of how wonderful exploring the world can be, and the joy on her face will forever be burned into my memory.

Monday, January 15, 2018

The Journey Begins: Hong Kong with a Side of Macau

We waddled across the Hong Kong border as though we were a couple of emperor penguins on the great march across Antarctica. The frigid Siberian winds of the north had switched south and joined forces with a late typhoon gusting in from the east. Our last week in Shantou had been a triple whammy of misery - cold, wet, and final exams.

As expected, the finals provided a lot of fodder for head shaking and conversation among the foreigners. I had students who spoke only Chinese, some that did not even show up, and two that walked out during the final. When I handed in the final exam paperwork, our liaison sweetly asked, "Did anyone fail?" I chuckled and responded that if I had not curved grades, one class would have had 32 students fail.

The morning of our departure, the angsty ancestor in our apartment gave us a final middle finger of farewell when our electricity breaker went kaput. Lukewarm shower water alerted us to the problem and no matter how many times we tried to reset it, it flipped. We were cold, cranky, damp, and so thrilled to making a run for the border (all while hoping a new year's firecracker will incite a miracle in our absence.)

Hong Kong welcomed us with her heated metros and savory pizzas. We lounged in the heated pool, thoroughly toasted ourselves in the sauna, and I spent hours reading in the bathtub. After tossing aside the melancholy of Shantou and completely thawing, we boarded a ferry bound for Macau.


Early December, we had a conversation with Alice about life and hopes for 2018. She was quite despondent that her quest to go to Macau was continuously thwarted by travel companions backing out at the last minute. Knowing quite well how Chinese rarely commit to something, we told her to forget her Chinese friends and travel with us. She laughed, but we reiterated that we would be happy to join her in Macau so she could start checking off items on her travel list. Questions abounded, but we told her that we would postpone our departure to Thailand by a few days and start making her dreams come true.

Thus, the second weekend in January, we welcomed Alice to Macau.


Our two full days in the Portuguese enclave of China was full of laughter, conversation, sightseeing, and walking. We ate our way through the samples of pineapple cakes, almond cookies, and beef jerky. We gazed longingly at the gorgeous architecture of the old buildings. We were delighted to spend an evening watching a free concert by the Macau Orchestra (and met an amazing couple in line who were getting ready to travel to Laos.) We corrupted Alice by teaching her how to play the slot machines at the Macau Venetian, and celebrated her meager winnings by eating famous egg tarts at Lord Stow's Bakery.


It was a delightful weekend jaunt with a truly dear friend. When we hugged and said our farewells, Alice's smile and abounding joy that she had made it to Macau was endearing. Traveling with friends is such an honor and this was a great start to our adventures to come. 

Friday, January 5, 2018

2017 ABCs


We blazed a trail through eleven countries/territories, meandered through 18 airports either fully coherent or in a jet lag haze. The year began with an overflowing social calendar, only to be completely empty by the last fourth of the year. We were welcomed into homes across the globe, forging new friends along the journey.  We survived living with seven children in one house and actually have a lot of fond memories of the mayhem. We changed schools and moved across the Guangdong province. We learned that Zach has a fear of swooping bats. We mowed a football field with a push mower. We have walked in places that are now completely devastated due to hurricanes Irma and Maria. Zach jet skied for the first time. I added a few Chinese words to my language pack.

Ultimately, it was a doozy of a year filled with new experiences, changes, gut-wrenching farewells, football, an abundance of travel, and beautiful reunions. This new year is setting up to be another fantastic year with definite changes, but before we get swept too far into 2018, here are the highlights of 2017.  

A: Australia

As our plane landed on the runway in Sydney, Zach said, "The last time I was here, I was carrying a discman and a case of CDs." Wide-eyed and giggling, I disembarked to face a pair of quintessential Aussie customs agents - one who looked as though he had walked straight from the beach and stashed his surfboard beneath the desk - and his desk partner, who had the blondest of blonde hair to match the tan, the accent, and the endearing, "darling" at the end of her welcome to Australia.

Australia was absolutely neglected on this blog in that not one post was written about our time in that amazing country. My aspirations to do so after the fact were swept away with a whirlwind semester. A year later, I look through pictures and notes kept from that amazing month.

I still giggle at town names like Fassifern, Wizzenbucca, Mullumbimby.

I love that I saw koalas and wallabies.


Our road trip to retrace Zach's summer job so long ago and meet people that I had heard about repeatedly was delightful in every way.

Australian pies are yummy.


I hugged a Mary Poppins statue in Maryborough.

While it sounded cool, Yamba was the biggest disappointment and the most expensive hostel ever.

Melbourne was our favorite city, as it reminded us a lot of Portland with its art and culture.


Australia beaches are as beautiful and sunny as advertised. I kept getting distracted by them.

I dubbed the country the Granny State because everything was closed by 3pm. I never thought I would eat so much Indian and Thai food in Australia.

The Opera house is rather ugly up close.

We cheered on the Newcastle Jets football teams with the supporters as they battled Melbourne City FC (though Zach says he was secretly cheering for the Melbourne City women.)

We drove a lot, walked a lot, laughed a lot, and thoroughly enjoyed our four weeks in the land down under. 

B: Books Read

By year end, I read 74 books, though I have a suspicion that I forgot to log a couple. I read books from 11 countries. My best series (recommended by friend, Carol) was the Bess Crawford Series by Charles Todd. I found myself sucked into this series not for the writing, but a mystery series set against the backdrop of WWI and with a front line nurse as the main character was really interesting. 

My favorite fiction of the year was The Hundred Year Old Man Who Climbed Out a Window and Disappeared by Jonas Jonasson. I laughed so many times while reading this one. 

The best nonfiction is a tie between The Elephant Whisperer by Lawrence Anthony and Born a Crime by Trevor Noah. Strangely, both are set in South Africa but offer two very different perspectives into the country. 

The best book of short stories is Paper Menagerie by Ken Liu. This is not for the faint of heart, and I think a lot of the stories resonated with me because I live in China; though his stories are fictional, there are definitely elements of truth in them. 

As for Zach, he ended the year with a tally of 41 books, reading from 12 series. His favorite reads of the year were Boy on the Bridge by Mike Carey and a re-read of Eye of the World from the Wheel of Time series.

Our favorite children's books of the year were Maple by Lori Nichols and a Tribe of Kids by Lane Smith.

C: Cuisine Memory

Late one evening, Zach and I found ourselves sitting with mom at the Johnny Rockets bar on the cruise ship, sipping milkshakes, eating french fries, and laughing with the wonderful worker from Guyana.


D: Destination of the Year

"Why do you want to go there?" was the common response anytime we mentioned going to Brunei. On repeat, we would say that it was our last country in southeast Asia and we wanted to explore it. After six days there, it is the hidden gem of this area and a perfect example that hearsay does not always align with actuality. We joke that we do not want to tell too many people how amazing the country is so that tourism does not destroy it. Our time in the sultanate by the sea was filled with an overabundance of friendliness, beautiful architecture, great museums, new food experiences, and an extended stay. I think a gentleman, who stopped to asked us if we needed a ride, summed up the country quite well: "I came here on a one year contract....in 1982."

E: Event That Made You Say Wow

Two events were definitely wow moments: being able to see the solar eclipse from our front yard, as well as watching baby turtles hatch and run (very slowly) for the ocean while in Puerto Rico.

F: Favorite Picture(s) of the Year 

This category is always an agonizing dilemma for the accidental photographers. This year, I have chosen six. 



Waiting for a village parade to begin, I snapped this photo of two friends passing the time watching their favorite show while fueling for the long trek ahead.



Dusty, windblown, and loving the sea air, I think Zach or McKinzee snapped this shot while on an excursion in Curacao. That ended up being our favorite stop of the cruise, and this one of my photos.


This guy grabbed my attention during a day hike with friends. Funny, daring, and a bit stupid, I snapped this photo moments before he jumped into the frigid waters beneath the waterfall.


After an incredible summer and facing a lot of unknown, I absolutely loved that we returned to Hong Kong as the sun rose. Flying over the mountainous islands, some fog, ships coming and going, I was reminded that this season of life is such a treat.


The alleyways of Shantou have been fascinating places to explore. I loved this shot showing the textures of an apartment complex as well as the woman watching the world go by.


Definitely an accidental shot as I was focused on the silhouettes of the women watching the village opera and did not notice the child, in the glow of the stage lights, completely enamored with the performance. 

G: Grossest Moment

Walking into our new apartment in Shantou was absolutely disgusting and the beginning of a two month battle with the school to get things fixed. Truly, by year's end, the only two things not to break are the refrigerator and washing machine.


H: Happiest Moment 

Zach says celebrating his birthday in Portland surrounded by those we love greatly was his happiest moment. 

I: Inconsistent Water

Our new campus has a problem keeping water running through its pipes. Nearly every corner of our hutong is filled with water bottles in preparation for the days without the elixir of life.

J: Journey That Took You the Longest 

We had no idea that flying from Portland to Puerto Rico would take longer than flying halfway around the world. To and from, it included a red eye and four connections. Though we did get upgraded to first class for the final leg and that was amazingly weird.

K: Keepsake from Your Travels

We ended the year with five new Starbucks mugs, three football jerseys, an array of tea from different countries, artwork for Curacao and Puerto Rico, and a piece of Bruneian silk.

L: Lies Abounding

We both agree that with the information we were told and the contract given, we could not have made a different decision. Months later, after walking into a hellhole and everything found to be a lie, we can say that Shantou Polytehnic College will not be a long term stay for us. This semester has been a disaster on multiple levels - horrid administration, language level way below expected, a campus that is so far removed from any adequate form of transportation, the limited availability to get food or goods, to the overwhelming sense of loneliness. Students are terrified of us and all other adults vacate the premise at 4pm bound for their apartments downtown. While we are grateful to see and experience a new side of China, we are ready to live somewhere with life.

M: Moment When You (Re)Fell in Love with Travel

Walking through the Curacao harbor yard to find the immigration office - it was bizarre, quite unique, and resulted in meeting a sailing family in the office and a trio of men using old ship parts to create amazing metalwork art. 

N: Nicest Hotel of the Year

This is a tie between the Sunnyside Tavern in Newcastle and the beachfront Puerto Rico condo (though technically not a hotel.) We found staying in pubs to be fantastic during our jaunt through Ireland, so we tend to look for such options since then. Bob treated us to the delight of being able to walk out our door onto the beach in Puerto Rico.


O: Odd, Just Odd

A popular Chinese idiom is:  皇帝Tiān gāo, huángdì yuǎn which translates to heaven is high and the emperor is far away. Its original meaning was for justice, but has come to encompass any shady dealings of modern times. Corruption does run rampant and for all the talk of tamping it, when the entire system is built on it then nothing will change.

We have seen a handful of "oops, you got caught" moments in our time here, starting with our first year at GDOU as the foreign affairs office was quietly disbanded, demoted, and shamed. No one was fired, just shuffled to another position that may or may not have so much access to funds. We had suspicions that things were not all peachy in paradise last October when the mayor did not appear at his annual gala, nor did our university president. Gradually, we noticed that edicts that had been handed down from high (with a shaking finger and a fist on the hip), were slowly being ignored around town. If the leaders do not say it, then it does not happen.

At the beginning of the spring term, we truly knew something was brewing on campus as new buses appeared, one of our students was expelled for cheating on an exam, and there was a lot of cleaning happening within the administration buildings. While new buses do not just appear during corruption investigations, a student (along with three others) being expelled for cheating on an exam does send a red flag. Students cheat on exams all the time; if the teacher does not post the answers on the screen while they take the exam, answers are scrawled on the desks and walls before the exam. (Truly, Chinese educational integrity is an entire blog post of its own making.) The cleaning was the biggest sign of the times. Chinese do not throw anything away (proof by the apartment that houses all nasty mattresses, broken microwaves and washers, molded furniture, and other mysterious objects that have been there so long they are no longer recognizable.)

The repetitive thud in front of our apartment drew our attention one afternoon. We were shocked, even humored, by the amount of paperwork that was being dumped from the offices.Granted, the cleaning of one building may not be what we think it means, but when all the administration buildings had a simultaneous itch to spring clean, things seemed a bit more believable.

The shadiest of shenanigans involved our apartment smelling like rotting fish for an entire day. Early one morning we heard a commotion behind our apartment, which really is not that unusual. The smell that followed that commotion was unusual, as was the opened doors on the bottom floor of the museum. Six years and those doors had never been opened...until a humongous sea creature needed to be skinned, gutted and sold in parts.

As blood poured out the door and pooled on the concrete and the Chinese inside cackled with glee at their butchery, Zach and I so hoped that China would not take over the world. If it does, wildlife is doomed, for if it can be slaughtered and eaten, it will be at the hands of the Chinese.

When we talked to students about it later, a couple of them said they had heard the creature (which we think was a shark or whale based on size) had been found. The fisherman did not want to waste such meat, so they decided to sneakily bring it to GDOU beneath a tarp, gut and skin in the basement of a building that is never used on campus, then take it out in large fillets bundled in tarps usually used for building materials. Yes, absolutely nothing fishy about that.


P: Portland

Our summer deserves a category by itself. It was hours spent swimming, reading books. laying in a hammock, chasing children, singing the Moana soundtrack on repeat, playing football and softball, walks, feasts, celebrations, long talks, yelling with the Timbers Army and Riveters, mini-weddings, camp meals, wrestle wars, and the million other small moments that made it a great summer.

Q: Quote(s) of the Year

If one of the greatest joys is encountering a friend far from home, making a friend must be as well. 
- Grace Lin, When the Sea Turned to Silver

You must step inside a world to see it honestly. A passing glance won't do. 
- Tehereh Mafi, Furthermore

R: Relaxed Moment

In reminiscing about the year, we joked that the three summer days when the house was abandoned by all except us was the most relaxing...even though we found ourselves constantly checking to make sure a child had not been left behind. 

S: Superstar Moment

While stares and obnoxious hellos are a normal part of our day, moving to Shantou has proven that though we live in the late 2000s, apparently some are still in the 1800s of no foreigner contact. Shantou has taken foreigner spotting and RFPs to an entirely new level, to the point of creepy and fearing for our safety. The times we have had to jump out of the path of a motobike who's driver is wide eyed and open mouthed to being followed for blocks by children and adults are uncountable. We even had to hide in a bathroom at a movie theatre to get away from an unpleasant horde of children and adults, where even a handful tried to follow. Thankfully, a employee rescued us and allowed us to enter the theatre well before the normal entrance time. 

T: Touristy Thing

Sailing on a ship, driving dune buggies, and riding jet skis in a bay while cruising the Caribbean definitely counts as the most touristy things we did this year.


U: Unforgettable Travel Memory

We stumbled across the vibrant blue church on a late afternoon walk. Walking through the gates, we quickly realized that a service was on the cusp of beginning. The pastor quickly greeted us and invited us in, to which we agreed, happy to sit for a bit. Three hours later, when exiting, the pastor stopped us to chat. Noticing Zach's football jersey, he quickly pulled another man over and introduced us with, "He likes football, too." We laughed, commented about how the game brings the world together, and chatted for a few minutes. As we made to leave again, the man said, "I will take them to dinner."

Stunned, we responded that was not necessary to which he was responded that he wanted to do so and promptly yelled for his kids. Twenty minutes later, we found ourselves at an Indian restaurant, swapping traveling stories, telling why we were in Brunei, and listening to what life looks like in Brunei. It was delightful - so unexpected, yet the very thing we hope for when traveling.

As they dropped us off at our hotel and we gushed our thanks, they announced they would pick us up the next evening for a jaunt to the market and dinner at their house.

They did.

It was such an enjoyable evening. I do not know if the Lee family will ever fully know what their connection meant to us. Even in such a full year, this meeting is still a highlight and one that we talk about often. Plus, unbeknownst to us at the time, it was to be the start of many connections to come with new and old friends which is why I think the unforgettable travel memory for the year is solely about the people.


V: Visit of the Year

Early in the year, we gained a partner-in-crime and housemate for a month when Josiah came to China. He raided our fridge with gusto, made me feel like my cooking was amazing, laughed a lot, met our students and friends, had his fortune told, experienced a village celebration, ate a lot of dumplings, and successfully survived living in another country. It was such a fun time and we hope that one day we get to do it again somewhere in the world. 


W: Wedding

We remember when they started dating as students in GDOU and repeatedly joked that the day they were to marry, we would be there. Amy kept her promise, even upping the ante by adding us to the wedding party. 

X: eXcellent View

After an evening watching The Nutcracker, we joined Roger and Ada at a posh bar for drinks and a stunning view of the Hong Kong harbor skyline. 

Y: Your Hardest Moment While Traveling

Upon taking off from KLIA, we (and a few fellow flyers) quickly realized that something was not right with our plane. Vibrating and a consistent wrenching noise beneath our feet was evident of mechanical issues. Initially, the flight crew poo-pooed our concerns, but an hour into the flight, it was announced that we were turning around to return to KLIA. We can now say that we have been on a flight where emergency crews were on the runway and the cockpit gave a countdown until touchdown. Nothing broke apart upon landing, a woman yelled, "Thank you, Jesus!", and the rest of us clapped. An hour later, we were back in the air, sans weird noises. 


Z: Zhanjiang

When we passed through the towering marble columns of the school gate for the first time, we were battered by six months of living in Beijing, in awe of the tropical zone we had plopped into, and perpetually curious about the new village that would be home for the year…

...and another year.

...and another one.

...one more? Sure.

...five...

..and then a bonus year.

Six years.

At the end of June, this was as far as I could get in writing before starting to weep.

Six years.

I could not write anymore. The emotions were too raw. Too new. Too overwhelming. Not only did I struggle with tears, but with words. How could I capture the hurt of this departure? What could I say to convey what a moment this was to us and our friends?

I...we owe so much to Zhanjiang and GDOU. Beneath its palm frond speckled skies and brilliant sunsets, we learned abundantly. We learned the nuances of another culture. We learned to laugh and cry with those that walk very different paths. We learned to choose our battles wisely. We learned that tropical fruit is manna from heaven. We walked alongside some in their hardest moments as well as their happiest. We dealt with death, sexpats, corruption, weird sickness, frustrations, and crumbling walls. We celebrated. We learned the most effective ways to clean mold. We were in TV shows and sports competitions. We explored. We made lasting friendships. We thrived.

The day before we left, our fellow teacher and friend, Michelle handed me a package. Upon opening, it was a binder filled with notes from students spanning our time, as well as bosses from our favorite restaurants and businesses. I could read the first note without tears. Though the students wrote their memories and well wishes for what was to come for us, it was such a tangible reminder that it was us who owed so much to them. They were the reason we stayed. They were the reason we laughed, cried, and yelled in frustration. They were the ones who taught us the most and we will always be grateful they made it home for us.